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My life is about to start spinning.
I got a list of days that I have free to work throughout the year. HA.
To say the least I will be a busy girl! Similar to the past year, any day off of MCC I will be working at Williams. Which means that my first real day off will be Christmas!
Im excited to an extent, because then the year will zoom past! Ill be too busy to miss BC and too busy to think about my life.
I will just dig deep into the teachings that God has planned out for me this year, and invest all my strength and focus on becoming a more effective leader. woo!
I guess this summer I really began to understand how fast time goes by. Being back out west really made me think, I dont take advantage of my days nearly as much as I should. We really don't know how long we have here on earth, heck I may not see the sun rise tomorrow! And if that is the case, then I want to LIVE today. I want the people that I care about to know that I love them! I want to see as much of the beauty God has created as I can.

On my way home from work today I saw a couple pulled over to the side of the road, the girl was sitting on the ground crying and the boy was standing over her yelling. Obviously in some sort of argument, but the passion that I witnessed was striking. Even the anger and hurt that was being shared between the two of them, you know that there is something else there. Something deep.
We are interesting beings. Our emotions, expierences, we are such complex beings.

This past weekend my mother and I went to see my twin cousins play soccer, and to my surprise within minutes of sitting down, I started to choke up. All I could think what "what the heck!? why do i want to cry?" for some bizarre reason, perhaps I miss playing soccer? or I was super duper proud? reguardless of the reason, I could barely keep the tears from falling down my cheeks.

Humans are strange.