haircut

i have no fear with scissors
no fear of the typical
no hestiation in love
but my heart stops
my lips seal shut
every ounce of self tramatized
just by hearing your name.

giving up
gave up
the world still spinning
sunrise and sunset
life moves
changes
but the pain remains

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brakes seized

hidden tears

mute screams

whispered prayers

wonder

confusion

emptiness

anger

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baludu

pain of disbelief
confusion
and respect
rotting pit inside

no glourious mountain
or raging sea
can speak solace

insomnia creeps
depression edges

Family

wishing i was home
missing my loud and insane family
wanting to wake up without the occean
new family grows by the day
but nothing with satisfy like blood

wonder

nervous of the feelings that i am creating

excited by their meaning

intimidated of the future

elated by the possibility of forever

run

where.
east or west.
how.
car or plane.
when.
now or never.

the potential is grand.
but fear overrides.

bear tooth necklace

like no time had passed.
aboundance of water under our bridge.
changed hearts.
matured minds.
one day to fall for you again.
no answers.
just questions.
time and God´s provision will tell this tale.
of friendship.
and of love.

adventure awaits.