does everyone do this?

do we all use each other this way?
lying our way into peoples lives,
pretending to be something we aren't.
using your relationships to curb your insecurities.
why cant people just be honest and real?
take the risk
otherwise you may end up with surface level friends
and no one to save you from yourself

instead of this perfect image, lets just be real.

come back.

i miss our friendship.
chatting for hours.
so few hours of sleep.
secret dates.
watching films.
rewatching films.
knowing you were just a call away.
your spontaneous nature.
acting like children.
board games. lego.

i miss chicopee.

the truth

even if the truth is going to hurt you, wouldnt you want to know? so that you arent living in a bubble of misconceptions!?

when in love i want to know, even if the truth would break my heart. i want to know your darkest fears, i want to know your biggest dreams, i want to scream at you when i hurt and cry on your chest when im too tired to do anything else. for i know everything else about you, i want to know the crap too, the stuff that you hide while on the boardwalk at the beach, the things that you dont think i could handle. i still deserve to know.

i cannot imagine that i could love to the fullest potiental if i wasnt fully honest. if it meant heart ache for the next year, it would be better than living in this secretive life and finding out that you felt comfortable lying for so long.

love has never been simple. my fear of being alone will never keep me from telling the truth.

tard face

get over it.
we are both in better places. i honestly would never change a thing.
if you agree then be there. be here.
come out from under the covers, out of the pages of your journal.
i will wait. but id rather do what we always promised to do.
stay friends.

just thinking

Once Satan has attached himself to your pinky toe, he has control over your whole leg.

The Original Ginger Soda

Vernors.
The most amazing pop that there is when your throat feels as though you drank acid.
Actually, Vernors is yummy anytime.
Same with Root Beer & Cream Soda.

Those are the only pops that I really drink. Im not really a soda drinker... I'd rather have milk.
Or tea. Or plain ol' h2o!

About to enjoy a cup of Neocitran and pass out in my bed with my oversized blankets and pillows.

headaches

i can feel every beat of my heart echo in my head.
every time i swallow my throat and chest screams for help!
normally i cant sleep in the afternoon, currently i cant stay awake.

i dont like being sick.
i feel ten, i want my mom.